Everything Sounds So Easy

   When you tell someone else to do something more times than not you think, 'Why didn't they do this? It sounds so easy.' But when you are the person who was told you realize, this is harder than you think. I have my appointment with the old neurologist tomorrow. Thankfully J is going with me, the last thing I need is to say something or yet nothing and get myself more pills. Something I seem to be really good at these days.
   I wish I could portray my dream(s) last night. Everything was so colorful, so many people were in it and yet it was euphoric. Things that would normally upset me...didn't. Aww to be so happy in a world with all of the personages that I would normally not even want to think about. It's strange how medication can cause you to dream differently. I wonder what or why we dream what we do? I'm funny, I should really be working on other things, but again I get side tracked so easily.
   This cold in lingering. I was coughing last night and I must have kept J up because I had a fresh glass of water this morning. I don't know what to take at night for it. Actually I would rather not take anything else. I've also been working on my diet, no pop or added sugar. I've only lost 1 pound, but at least I haven't gained! When we were getting cereal this morning M kept saying "the doctor said no sugar". She a good reminder, but I already remembered.
   This all sounds so uncomplicated but let me list the things I am working on/dealing with. My Vitamin D 25-Hydroxy level is 12.8 (should be 32-100), Cholesterol is above normal limits at 237, aloing with my HDL 47, LDL 156 and  Triglycerides 171. That's it for the blood tests. My left ear started hurting at the end of November. I called my family doctor and spoke with a nurse, she said I didn't sound like I needed to bee seen. I gave it 2 weeks with the pain growing and was finally given an appointment. I was treated for an ear infection/grey matter in my ear. I returned in 10 days with no relief, I was then given a referral to an ENT. January 18th I was seen and told I needed to come in for a series of test and the first MRI. After the MRI I was in such pain I could barely drive home. The 1st of the next week I went in for 3-4 hours of hearing tests. As I was driving home within 5 minutes from leaving the office the left side of my face went numb. The ENT then referred me to the Neurologist for the rest of the blood and other tests. The imaging results were fine for the MRA of my Head, MRI of the Cervical Spine showed: Very minimal disc degenerative changes, most prominent at the level of C-3-C-4, where right-sided unconvertebral suprring resluts in mild right-sided neuroforaminal narrowing, MRI of Brain with Contrast showed: Increased number of visible, but enlarged cervical lymph nodes bilaterally, I have panic disorder and anxiety and last but not least sleep resistance. Waalaaa!
   I know that I complain and think 1 doctor can fix it all, but on the other hand I need to be realistic about my care. I am thankful that I am as far as I am.