Getting Desperate

    With being in so much pain this weekend I was getting desperate. The Neurotin on top of the Tegertol wasn't completely working. I decided to call the guy who does the Nucca treatments. He had an opening yesterday, so M and I went. I told him I had a hard time believing he could fix something that was so complex. No other doctors could promise me anything.
    J and I read the book What Time Tuesday, I mean it worked for this guy and all of the others in his book . Upper Cervical treatment make sense, align your spine and get your atlas right so everything works. After my vicoden days I wanted something to work. We got to Dr. M's office and he had a copy of the book there too. This was it, it was going to be the answer to all of my problems. There was a lady sitting in the waiting room, so I asked her what she thought about all of this. She said she didn't understand it but she has never felt better in her life. Hum I thought, a real testimonial.
    I went back and he asked me questions and I asked him questions. He decided x-rays would be the best way in order to tell everything. As usual everything went down hill from there. He tried an adjustment and as tears started to fall, Dr. M asked if they were emotional tears. What a stupid question, they were tears of pain. He had me go and rest in a big comfy chair. I was hysterical by this point and it seemed as if time was moving so slow. After 30 minutes I got up and in excruciating pain I get to the front desk and told her I was leaving. Gave her my payment and we left.
    After I got home I ate and took more pain medication and laid down. This was a mistake?!? I don't know. Later Dr. M called and said that it was just the tip of the iceberg. I can't promise that I will go back or that this was the right thing to do.
    Today I woke up in pain again. more pain medication and rest was cancelling everything that I needed to get done. Again I feel lost and wonder who has the answer. :(