I always say 'I can't believe how bad I felt', but I have a serious rare disease. I need to realize that it only gets worse. Break through pain meds that I have aren't even touching it. I told J that I felt like I was hit on the back of the head with a hammer and the the skin on my face was ripped off and the stapled back on. Then the depression falls in. Stupid Lipitor commercial. "If you have high cholesterol then damage is already done. You could have a stroke or a heart attack". I panic!!! Am I going to have a heart attack right now or in 10 minutes? It's horrible. Will M know what to do if something does happen, maybe I should go over with her 911 procedures. All of this anxiety.
The new medication that I have is causing a kind of weird side effect. I have been nauseous and so I drink 7-up. anything that is carbonated is burning my tongue. Strange huh? The pain is still there but a more numbing and not so much a knocked down by a 2 x 4 and other various interesting sensations.
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