Hot Or Cold?

   J says he's pretty sure that I have the FLU! Gross! I could barely get up this morning, which was nothing new. As the day went on I felt worse and worse. The couch is getting more uncomfortable, flopping from one side to the other. Thank goodness M likes to get me a cold washcloth, which she did several times. Around 3:00pm I dug myself up the stairs and took a shower. I didn't know if this was a good or bad idea, even when I was in the shower. My skin hurt, I was getting the chills. Hot/Cold I didn't know which one I was.
   Everything started on Wednesday. After M got off of school, we all went to Walgreens to get our Flu shots. I wanted to stay on top of getting sick this season. Among everything else I started to go downhill after that. I had plans to do a girls night on Friday night. I made a friend with one of the other moms when M was in the first grade. I thought everything was fine, as I do with many of my friendships. I expect 100%, but I will in turn give 100%. This was not the case as the girls got older. I was sad but understood that all friendships, as said I heard in the past, are for 'a time', 'a reason' or 'a season'. I guess this one has fizzled out for a reason, the girls haven't been in the same class for the past 2 years. As I have become more ill, she has backed off, and that is fair. I went back and forth with myself and J as to go or not. I decided that I finally would. They gave us a nice dresser for M's room that was in their garage early in the summer. We offered to pay them but she said that "maybe we could go to eat sometime". So I felt it was more of something that I should just get done. I laid around until about 2:00pm, when I had to get ready to go get M from school.
   So Friday night comes and I go and pick everyone up. We ate, and I just went along with what everyone wanted to order. Then we went to see a movie. And I took everyone one home, not hard because they are all neighbors. But I have put on another 10 pounds since I last saw everyone. There is this one lady that spend a good point of dinner talking about how she wears a size 00. These women are all of sort of the same decent and must think that I am just fat and lazy. At least that is the way the flow of conversation was going..."you were so skinny last year". Yeah, I had C Diff & I was sick for 6 weeks, plus I take more pills everyday. Touchy subject for me right now.
   This day is finally over and I hate to think of waking up to another day like this.