I am a very stubborn person and if I have something in my mind, I want to know why? Why don't I feel good? What caused all of this? Why doesn't one of these doctors have a diagnosis yet? I have an appt with a new Chiropatic Neurologist tomorrow. J is going to be able to take off and go with me. I am so happy about that. I am also going to read more about homeopathic remedies. You never know!
The swelling on my collarbone is down today, which I'm starting to think is really connected to my arm. I woke up this morning and felt ok, but as the day goes on the pain in my ear and head came back. I took a xanax and then I started to feel nauseous. YUCK!! Everyone close to me knows how much I hate to feel that way, so crackers it was for lunch. Don't worry, I'm not wasting away to nothing. The down side to all of this medication is weight gain. I am at my heaviest I have ever been. I know getting better is the most important, but I don't think gaining weight helps me feel better about myself.
I have a difficult time when a staff member at the 1st neurologist office told be that I need to just look at this like 1 year of my life. I would look back 10 years from now and be glad that I took the time focusing on getting better. Yeah, easy to say when I was in the drivers seat of my life. I got back to work and school was important. Everything was going good, J and I were going smooth as always, and M was thriving with being more involved. A year and a half ago I already took personal time to recover from issues from my past. How much is J willing to deal with? He is truly one in a million. No matter what I throw at him, he never leaves my side.
I went and got M from school and she has a fever. Hopefully she is not getting another Kindergarten illness. J was busy on call all weekend, I don't know where he gets the energy. He'll probably get sick from her from being worn down.
-A
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