Cleaning Up The Mess I Made

   Yesterday I called D.N. my Therapist and left him a message about Tuesdays fiasco, and made an appointment with Dr. O.G. for today. I also called Dr.K.G. and left a message about it too. The lady said Dr.O.G. called in to talk to Dr. K.G.. I told her that I followed through and what happened. Then later in the afternoon and we talked. He said that I sounded fine and what had happened was that I just had a meltdown and just happened to be in the doctors office. We agreed that I would just come to see him once a week, but didn't need to be referred to anywhere else.
   I got up this morning and was wondering why my alarm was going off. Oh yeah, I have an appointment at 9:30am. M and I got ready and I was just lolly gagging around. Then about 8:45am I panicked. I grabbed my book to check the time of my appointment. 9:00am!!! We were out the door in 2 minutes. On the way there I called and left a message that I was so sorry I was going to be 5 minutes late. Exactly 5 minutes late and wouldn't you know he was running on schedule. We go back and we talked about Tuesday. He said that Dr. K.G. was worried and didn't know what to do. But he agreed anyone with illness after illness along with reactions to medication would cause a great amount of stress on someone. 10 minutes after getting there and I was on my way. Ahhhh!
   I got home and the PTA President called to remind me that we needed to start decorating for Teacher Appreciation Week. I have a hard time saying no, so when she approached me a month ago I was like sure. I just don't even know why I did this to myself. I never know how I feel and to commit to something was foolish of me. But I said yes to I had to do it. M and I went to her school and PTA lady wasn't there. Good! I started on what I said I'd do, then she called and because I was there she'd stop by. Great it was so humid out today and the school didn't have the air on, plus they were waxing the floors. The smell was horrendous. After PTA Lady gets there she starts going over each days menu. another perfect opportunity to say no. She already said what she marked down for me to do. I'm stressed out, but I don't know her and she works in M's POD. I don't want her to say anything bad about me. I guess I can only do what I can do, and I can't feel bad about that.