I was so happy and excited to see my mom after a year and my dad after two. My nephews came out also. The house was full and thriving with love and energy. When I went to Dr. T's last week she said I should go up on the Niriton to 1800mg. The step up to 1500pm went well. The morning after I took the next step to 1800mg I woke up swollen. That was on Monday. It started with my feet, then my ankles and legs. The Doctor said that should go back down to 1200mg because my body was rejecting it. Again the withdrawal, feeling like I was going to throw up and every bone in my body ached. I was rejecting that feeling. I don't want to go through this, and you would think that your body would be happy to get any of the poison out. I heard that the Neurosurgeon will be calling me about making an appointment for possible Gamma Knife. Also I see the Endocronologist next week about my thyroid.
My family left on Monday night and it was sooooooo great to spend time with them. I only had one day that I was really bad that I couldn't get out of bed. My family waited for me to feel better and included me later in the day. :)
So here I am. I have listened to the doctors and followed all that they have said. But I am no better. I still have Anxiety, Depression, Facial Pain, High Cholesterol and Thyroid issues! I spend so much time devising a plan to come off all of the medication these days. I am currently taking up to 21 pills a day. Who takes that?!? All of my family has come and gone, B will be leaving tomorrow. Then it will go back to being just the 3 of us. I'm realizing that I am numb to many feelings, so it hasn't hit me yet.
I really lost right now!
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