It feels like a dream, my family being here. Really everything feels like a dream. J will say something or tell me to remember something and I will have NO CLUE what he is talking about. This could be something that we discussed yesterday and I will have forgotten. Oh yeah, the dream, I will think I said something and maybe I was dreaming. Confused yet? That's how it is, I try to laugh but I am always afraid that it may be something serious that I forget.
The newest symptom is swelling. My hands, feet and legs. Crazy! Maybe I walked too much? This brings up another issue. My weight, I just keep gaining weight. I talked to Dr. R. and he said to talk to my psychiatrist or neurologist about that. I really thought he'd be the 'go to guy' but I guess not. I talked to my psychiatrist when I went last. He just looked at me and then started talking about something else. Then I went to see Dr. T, she mentioned a drug real quick then started talking about something else too. Last week one of her staff members called and said a Dr. C will be calling from the neurosurgeons office to schedule a consult for the Gamma Knife. I asked her about the medication (whatever it was called). That girl had the nerve to ask me "are you sure you aren't just overeating?" I said 'no' then she acted like she was kidding. What the crap? Am I overeating? I was so offended..... She called back and said she talked to Dr. T and they are going to have to get ahold of Dr. B. because it might change my mood. It's like a double edged sword. I need to exercise in order to lose weight, and help my other health issues. But I swell and can't get up sometimes so that doesn't really work out. I recall this because I was so offended.
Please tell me all of this was just a dream...
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