My 'To Do List' Keeps Getting Longer, Because I Keep Losing It!

  It would be great if the only thing I lost was my 'To Do List'. I live in La~La Land now. I'm starting to accept that now. I mean it doesn't bother me most days, but then there are others. In Delaware while I was seeing D.N., we spent over a year with Cognitive Therapy. Look at the problem differently:

Problem: I keep forgetting

  How does this make me feel: That I am stupid

   What I should tell myself: I should accept my disease, and that this is a side effect from the drugs

    I may have convinced myself that I could do this self talk and get though more situations. I am my own best therapist, sometimes. I too like any other ATN patient forgets to take their meds, where we put our lists, how we used to be BATN (Before Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia). I keep forgetting that I was going to get through all of theses books I have, I keep forgetting that I have a hard time reading therefore that's why they are still sitting there. I get up and forget that I have pain, did I have pain there before? I do have new pain walking, to the bathroom, down the stairs. The pain and swelling is in my legs and feet. For two days now it hurts. What is going on?

    Alot still goes on in the world around me. Life doesn't stop. I have 2 friends that are now pregnant, one is a high risk. School is getting ready to start or already started. I have a cousin who is dealing her with her father haven taken his life a week ago. So many others are in dire situations. So I can't just think of myself. Or rather I don't want to think of myself, I want to remember others. That's what keeps me going.