It Feels Like the Longest Train Ride Ever!

    I relied on a person in a professional setting that said she would see me though this fight. Last week after 6 straight days of pain, I started to see the light again with the normal throbbing. As I was sitting on the floor by my bed the phone rang, it was Dr.T’s office. I thought they were calling to confirm my appointment for the following day. Exactly the opposite, they called to tell me that I should look for a new neurologist. OH MY GOD!!!!!! REALLY?!? I was floored, the phone rang and it was my mother-in-law. She listened to me sobbing into the phone. After I finished with that call, I called J and then my mom. I was hurt then angry. This was unbelievable to me; I have never been fired from a doctor’s office.

    As I shared my story, I was told I should write a letter to the doctor. I mean what did this girl tell her that I said? Aren’t you supposed to call the doctor if you are in pain? What good what it have done me it write a letter? The entire office consisted of 4 people, the doctor and then 3 workers. Whose side would she really have taken? It wasn’t worth my time; I needed to get on finding another doctor. I did call my insurance and let them know so that it would reflect on her rating. My tears and anger provoke questions…but questions aren’t going to get me anywhere right now.

    I called around and asked doctors if they knew anything about my “Condition”. I found a neurologist that had a cancellation for last Friday. J went with me and as we waited for an HOUR after my appointment time, we were called back. I was not very patient as Dr. V asked the same questions over and over & then yawning. How do these doctors get degrees? J said after going to all of the doctor appointments with me he could do it, “Follow my finger, lift your arms and then don’t let me push them down…”.  Okay, he’s right. This new doctor wants to do new MRI’s, blood tests and then refer me to either UCLA or The Mayo Clinic. He said that my condition was to complex and that I have already taken all of the medication that they usually go through. I have been told that the UCC treatment would be helpful but I just don’t believe.  So here I am…all of my chips are on the table. I called The Mayo Clinic and was told that they do not have any appointments. I got registered with them so that if I am able to get in, it would be easier. This all feels so surreal. I have all of this medication I’m taking and how do I step down. So for all of you that wondering here’s the list:

Name	Type	Dosage	Time
Alprazolam 1mg	Tabs	1mg	As needed
Amitriptyline 75mg	Tabs	75mg	1 tab at bedtime
Buspirone HCL 30 mg	Tabs	60mg	2 tabs every morning
Duac CS Kit			Apply at night to face
Flax Seed Oil 1000mg	Softgels	2000mg	2 gels twice daily
Gabapentin 300mg	Caps	1200mg	2 caps twice daily
Hydrocodone 500mg	Tabs	500mg	As needed
Levothyroxine 0.112mg	Tabs	112mcg	1 tab 30 min b4 breakfast
Promethazine 25mg	Tabs	25mg	As needed
Red Yeast Rice 600mg	Caps	1200mg	1 cap twice daily
Sertraline HCL 100mg	Tabs	200mg	2 tabs every morning
Tegretol-XR 400mg	Tabs	800mg	1 tab twice daily
Temazepam 30mg	Caps	60mg	2 caps at bedtime
Vitamin D 50,000IU	Caps	50,000IU	1 cap every week