What Happend To The Christmas Spirit?

    I'm having a hard time today. The past couple of days. I have been having death dreams again, except this time I'm the one killing. It's scary and I hate it! I'm changing my meds again- going down on the Gabapetin. Maybe this is what is causing it, but it's so horrifying! It doesn't feel as if I'm sleeping well and I want to break down in tears, but what can I do? The pain has been really bad too and after losing 6 pounds I'm gaining it back again.

    I made two appointments with specialists in Colorado and we will be going back at the end of January. It will be great to see family then too. I wish that B could come with us, but it's during school time and she can't miss that much.

    I got a package from my father yesterday and when J unwrapped it, it was for my 'lost' sister and her whatever he is. We planned to ship it back to him after the holidays and leave it at that. I got up this morning and my phone said that I missed a call from them in which they left a voice mail. It was asking for my email so they could send a card and B's address. I have had the same email address for 10 years, so it's just unbelievable to me. I have given them B's address quite a few times too.

    I have the 2nd part of my dental check-up appointment today. I wanted to call to cancel but figured I might as well get it over with while I'm not in screaming pain, that will happen after. Then on Thursday I have another appointment.  Endodontist who I want to take a look at a front tooth that I had a root canal done in 1997. After having a replacement crown done years ago the fill in missing out of the canal. So that I don't end up losing the tooth "Yikes, losing my front tooth" I'm going to have it looked at.

    I hope that for myself that I can get over having these bad dreams at night and is able to get a good night sleep.

    Every year I have always taken the time to send out cards. I send out close to 70 cards each year. It's the least one can do to let people know that we thought of them all year, I have lost some addresses throughout the years.:( I'm finding that this is a lost art, I don't know why many others have stopped doing this simple act of kindness at Christmas. But I am disappointed to only have received less than a 1/3 this year. In our home we also try to also write handwritten notes to thank other's for things that they have done for us. I guess with Facebook and email why write a personalized note? It's too hard to place a stamp on a note and place it in the out-going mail?