Life is Ending or Slowly Getting There

   I try to keep my family out of my posts but I had a Great Aunt pass away last night. So I must send my farewell to her. Then I have another close family member just hanging on...my thoughts are always with her.
   I had a rough week, I thought I was getting the flu. I have been on 2 separate antibiotics in the past couple of weeks. Last week I thought I was in the worst shape. I called my Grandma crying, asking if she heard of anything to help. I already take 50,000 IU of Vitamin D a week, 1000mg of Vitamin C, Cultrelle, 50mg of Zinc. So I don't know what else I needed. I was nauseous, my body hurt, I have a temperature. I didn't think I could move without throwing up and I had to still go get M from school. So about 2:00pm I started to get up and took Airborne. I picked her up a little bit early so I didn't sit in the car and then have to go walk up and wait at her classroom door. On our way home we stopped at BK to get chicken nuggets. I wanted to make some Chicken Soup. That seemed to help a little. It took a few more days, actually today until I really felt better.
   Yesterday we met with a new Pain Management Doctor. We arrived a few minutes early. The office stunk, but the girl in front was very nice. She gave me a New Patient Packet that seemed like it was 16 pages long. I like to fill out the packets at home, when I have time to write EVERYTHING down. They were running about an hour and a half behind. We go into the room and I'm not even kidding, it was so dirty. There was a huge stain on the rug. The paper in the table hadn't been pulled down and changed (there was still writing on it) & finally there was a dirty cup on the magazines.
   He wouldn't let me speak, and when he did, he wasn't patient enough to let my mind make the words. I even tried to tell him that all of the medications made my mind mixed up. He also kept looking up to J, as if talking to him.
   He said that I have to go see this Neurosurgeon here in Vegas. He said that the Surgeon who did the Sphenopalatine Ganglion Block(SPG) at Cedar Sinai missed. I was misdiagnosed. Wooh stop there! I went to Cedar Sinai because they are the best of the best in Trigeminal Neuralgia. He talked about putting a pain pump in my face. This was after they re-did the SPG Block. But he has the nerve to say that they did it wrong!?! After we left there we stopped to get something to eat and then home. Later I feel asleep for a couple of hours. That doctor visit drained me, I was upset. I can't redo all of that again.